Decide.

During the past few days, my mind has been bothered by the same kind of music. Music playing to the tune of,  "Indecision", "What if", "What to do".

I am uncertain whether to accept a job or not. I have been praying for a job offer to come along, when it did come, I already decided that I was gonna resign, but a phrase from our dept head made me think twice, "Ung training program, bkit ka natatakot, matalino ka naman."

It was not just gonna be a transfer of jobs, it's gonna be a transfer of company (a direct rival).
I thought, what was holding me back? The pay and the position is higher and the company is stable but why am I thinking twice?

I was gonna be lined up for the training program next year and promoted to AM, but the job the other company was offering me was a JAM2 position. However, the pay was gonna be the same as the salary I will be getting once I get promoted to AM. hmm, money or position?

There are also risks involved if I stay with my company. I have to pass training, clean my attendance and pass my project.

But then I thought, why did I go through the medical exam, the interviews and package offer if I was not decided on leaving?

I realized, at that point, I may not have conviction on my decision to move out since I preferred to listen to all the stories other people have regarding my decision to transfer. I also realized that I loved my company and preferred it. Though somehow I do have regrets.